hahaha just joking.
I'm not even in Australia yet, and I'm almost positive that I cannot pull that off in either America or Australia :P
A lot of you know that I will be studying abroad this semester in Melbourne, Australia. Am I excited? As much as I want to be, as much as I intended to be, I'm actually not.
When I first signed up for studying abroad, I thought I needed to be a complex person, an interesting person. A person who has traveled the world, who has seen this and that. But I've come to the realization that I'm much simpler than that. A huge part of me now wants to just stay here, and not miss out on the people I know, the people I love. And I think that'd satisfy me.
My home pastor is always saying: it's not the places you go, but the people you are with that counts.
This is so true. And it's sobering to realize everything that I have here at home to leave behind and miss so dearly. It makes me think of everything and everyone I've taken for granted over the years. My high school English teacher wrote in my yearbook: "Time goes too fast to enjoy the people we care about" And this is also very true. Most of the relationships in my life are bound by time. There is an expiration date, and I hate that that expiration date is coming up sooner than need be with a certain group of people who will be graduating in the year 2012 (sniffffffffff. cry. boogies. flow.)
But if this emotional battle has taught me anything this past week, it is the fact that I've built my own little kingdom here in Philly, and it has become an emotional crutch for me. God has every right to burst my little bubble--to "pop that jawn" (HAHA remember that mainline?) He can take everything I'm used to, comfortable with, and love away from me and I should continue to rely on Him and follow Him wherever He leads me. Instead of holding on to my Kingdom, I should be living for His Kingdom which is the only thing that isn't under the curse of time. Really, it is the only constant in my life.
Besides, being ex-communicated to Melbourne, Australia for a semester (aka being blessed with the opportunity to study abroad haha) is not that much of a "struggle" or challenge. I'm just being a big, blubbering baby. haha and I'm sorry, I'm just an over-thinker.
So without further ado, I present to you..... my new travel blog: The Mel(Bourne) Identity.
Here's to me making the most of my opportunity in Melbourne. A chance to be tested, a chance be pushed out of my comfort zone, a chance to grow, a chance to be independent but dependent on God, and a chance to really become and grow into myself :)
Will be back next time with not-emo, tanned, Australian Linda!
*Title credits to the queen of mainline, the queen of puns, our beloved senior Sarah Shala Salad Kim <3
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